Please Stick Around My Lil' Bean
Since last week I’ve been irritable, emotional, hot, and hungry. We've been trying to get pregnant for so long – so all these were welcome signs for me. Yes, I’m pregnant! I finally took a pg. test and sure enough, I am. But no victory dances yet. Last week I started bleeding and spotting sporadically. You see- I have been thru this before. This is my 5th pregnancy (yikes) and so far I only have 2 wonderful kiddos at home. My last 2 pregnancies resulted in miscarriages and needless to say that I am quite paranoid of the possibility.
I am only about 5 weeks pregnant so an ultrasound won’t be able to detect a fetal heartbeat just yet. Instead my doctor ordered a blood test this morning and another one by Monday. Hopefully my HCG level will show a progression which will then lead us to believe that this will be a viable pregnancy. Well for the moment at least.
With my second baby, I also bled and spotted throughout the whole pregnancy ride. Doctors couldn’t really figure out why but I was in and out the hospital at least every other week, every month if I was lucky.
My husband doesn’t really want me to tell people yet about this pregnancy until the first trimester is over. That’s another 7 weeks away! Somehow I feel cheated from having to shout out how happy my heart is. When they told me I was going to lose my 2nd baby we kept the pregnancy quiet, but we didn’t lose him. He’s here today and I wish I was more positive then and have my family and friends shower me with more positive energies. It would’ve helped in those many depressing complications we had gone thru. So now I feel like, whatever…if it doesn’t happen, it doesn’t happen. I for a little bit will blog about how happy and excited I am. Keep your fingers crossed for me – I really need this little bean to hang on tighter.
Please visit my new renter Mama C-ta. I needed to see a blog with a baby in there to rub some goodluck and sure enough Mama C-ta bidded for the spot. :-)
While I personally never dealt with bleeding throughout my pregnancy my girl friend did and she had a healthy baby boy who will be 7 this year.
Congrats sweetie! I'm so frickn happy for you!!!!!!(as the squeeing and multiple !!!! wern't enough of an indication. LOL)
Sending sticky vibes your way and giving gentle belly rubs from afar.
I'll be sending positive thoughts your way and hope that you see the numbers you need.
Oh, I'm so happy for you. I've been a bit baby hungry lately, to just share in someone else joy is so fun!
Best of luck, my thoughts, prayers, crossed fingers and toes will all be with you!
I'll be praying really hard for you and the baby. For peace and for protection.
I went through infertility before getting pregnant with my second child, and then also had the spotting like you.
I was told I had mild placenta previa (I had it worse with my third pregancy) and that it was okay. It corrected itself by the time I gave birth and they never were too concerned.
I'm praying that it's something simple like that for you, too.
I've been through the multiple miscarriages-- I think it made ME unable to just accept that everything will be ok.
But, you know the odds are that everything is fine...
Sending sticky vibes your way!