Please Stick Around My Lil' Bean

Since last week I’ve been irritable, emotional, hot, and hungry. We've been trying to get pregnant for so long – so all these were welcome signs for me. Yes, I’m pregnant! I finally took a pg. test and sure enough, I am. But no victory dances yet. Last week I started bleeding and spotting sporadically. You see- I have been thru this before. This is my 5th pregnancy (yikes) and so far I only have 2 wonderful kiddos at home. My last 2 pregnancies resulted in miscarriages and needless to say that I am quite paranoid of the possibility.

I am only about 5 weeks pregnant so an ultrasound won’t be able to detect a fetal heartbeat just yet. Instead my doctor ordered a blood test this morning and another one by Monday. Hopefully my HCG level will show a progression which will then lead us to believe that this will be a viable pregnancy. Well for the moment at least.

With my second baby, I also bled and spotted throughout the whole pregnancy ride. Doctors couldn’t really figure out why but I was in and out the hospital at least every other week, every month if I was lucky.

My husband doesn’t really want me to tell people yet about this pregnancy until the first trimester is over. That’s another 7 weeks away! Somehow I feel cheated from having to shout out how happy my heart is. When they told me I was going to lose my 2nd baby we kept the pregnancy quiet, but we didn’t lose him. He’s here today and I wish I was more positive then and have my family and friends shower me with more positive energies. It would’ve helped in those many depressing complications we had gone thru. So now I feel like, whatever…if it doesn’t happen, it doesn’t happen. I for a little bit will blog about how happy and excited I am. Keep your fingers crossed for me – I really need this little bean to hang on tighter.

----------------
Please visit my new renter Mama C-ta. I needed to see a blog with a baby in there to rub some goodluck and sure enough Mama C-ta bidded for the spot. :-)