Please Stick Around My Lil' Bean


Since last week I’ve been irritable, emotional, hot, and hungry. We've been trying to get pregnant for so long – so all these were welcome signs for me. Yes, I’m pregnant! I finally took a pg. test and sure enough, I am. But no victory dances yet. Last week I started bleeding and spotting sporadically. You see- I have been thru this before. This is my 5th pregnancy (yikes) and so far I only have 2 wonderful kiddos at home. My last 2 pregnancies resulted in miscarriages and needless to say that I am quite paranoid of the possibility.

I am only about 5 weeks pregnant so an ultrasound won’t be able to detect a fetal heartbeat just yet. Instead my doctor ordered a blood test this morning and another one by Monday. Hopefully my HCG level will show a progression which will then lead us to believe that this will be a viable pregnancy. Well for the moment at least.

With my second baby, I also bled and spotted throughout the whole pregnancy ride. Doctors couldn’t really figure out why but I was in and out the hospital at least every other week, every month if I was lucky.

My husband doesn’t really want me to tell people yet about this pregnancy until the first trimester is over. That’s another 7 weeks away! Somehow I feel cheated from having to shout out how happy my heart is. When they told me I was going to lose my 2nd baby we kept the pregnancy quiet, but we didn’t lose him. He’s here today and I wish I was more positive then and have my family and friends shower me with more positive energies. It would’ve helped in those many depressing complications we had gone thru. So now I feel like, whatever…if it doesn’t happen, it doesn’t happen. I for a little bit will blog about how happy and excited I am. Keep your fingers crossed for me – I really need this little bean to hang on tighter.

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Please visit my new renter Mama C-ta. I needed to see a blog with a baby in there to rub some goodluck and sure enough Mama C-ta bidded for the spot. :-)

Comments

Valerie said…
Oh YAY! I am so happy for you and will be sitting here praying really hard for the little bean to stick! no assvice here but I bled alot with T too. Good luck sweetie.
MJ Tam said…
~Valerie - You don't know how much comfort it brought me that someone else have had a baby full term who has bled during pregnancy. Your prayer is much needed. Thanks so much!
Mama of 2 said…
Here's to sending you well wishes and prayers for this pregnancy. Let us here shower you with positive energy until you feel comfortable enough with your progession to tell your friends and family.

While I personally never dealt with bleeding throughout my pregnancy my girl friend did and she had a healthy baby boy who will be 7 this year.
Anonymous said…
Awww I totally understand.....Congratulations on getting pregnant!! I am hoping for your lil bean to stick too!!! You are my hero!! We have wanted to get pregnant after our miscarriage so bad, so it is good to read someone is and it can happen!!! I am so rooting for you!!!
MJ Tam said…
~ Mama of 2 - Thank you for sharing about your friend and her healthy now 7 yr. old. I'm feeling the good vibes from you.
MJ Tam said…
~chelle - Thank you for sharing about wanting to get pregnant again after a miscarriage. It can definitely happen. You musn't give up. I will also root for you. I have this book called "Taking Charge of your Fertility" book. Check it out.
Kel said…
SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Congrats sweetie! I'm so frickn happy for you!!!!!!(as the squeeing and multiple !!!! wern't enough of an indication. LOL)

Sending sticky vibes your way and giving gentle belly rubs from afar.

I'll be sending positive thoughts your way and hope that you see the numbers you need.
I'm so happy for you. I'm keeping my fingers, toes and everything else I can cross crossed for those blood tests to be okay, and for the pregnancy to be healthy. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts...
Cristina said…
Congratulations!!! I wish you all the best and my prayers are with you for a safe and healthy pregnancy!
Anonymous said…
sending you positive vibes :).
BlondeBlogger said…
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited for you!!!!!!!

I'll be praying really hard for you and the baby. For peace and for protection.

I went through infertility before getting pregnant with my second child, and then also had the spotting like you.

I was told I had mild placenta previa (I had it worse with my third pregancy) and that it was okay. It corrected itself by the time I gave birth and they never were too concerned.

I'm praying that it's something simple like that for you, too.
cmhl said…
*throwing baby dust your way*

I've been through the multiple miscarriages-- I think it made ME unable to just accept that everything will be ok.

But, you know the odds are that everything is fine...

and congratulations!
Anonymous said…
Congrats! Hey, I say go for it and tell people. If (God forbid) something does happen to this one, you'll have more people around to support you than you would if you had just kept it secret. Best of wishes for a healthy, full-term pregnancy!
Neurotic Mom said…
Congrats!! I hope all goes well ((Hugs))
Anonymous said…
Wow!!! =)... Hello there workaholic mother of two! I swear you are so in demand ;) you have to really slow down. I will keep you in my prayers and you know that I love you so please take it easy okay. I can't wait for this baby...I am so happy to learn that you are expecting finally. Congratulations!!!
Valerie said…
Sugar mama just wanted to check in and see how you are doing. I hope all is still well and sending sticky bean vibes.
MJ Tam said…
~EVERYBODY here, thank you for sending many baby dust my way. You guys has been my source of inspiration lately in feeling that things may just be ok. I will update by Monday as soon as I know frommy blood test.
I want to say congrats to you! We are expecting our third in end of September so I know the whole emotional roller coaster thing.
Anonymous said…
Congrats! :)
cheH said…
Awww what a good news!!!I'm so happy for you sugarmama!Hugses

Take care!
Mommy said…
Congratulations! What wonderful news!

Sending sticky vibes your way!

=D
eatmisery said…
I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you.
Stacy said…
Congratulations! I'm so late to the news but I had to send you my well wishes.