Feels Like Life On Hold

Last week I posted about my pregnancy and bleeding. The good news is, my HCG level has increased from 269 to 2265 which looks very promising, but I am still not out of the woodwork. The Nurse practitioner had called that I am scheduled for an ultrasound next week on Monday to see if they can detect fetal heartbeat. I am now extremely nervous and cannot think about anything else but this. I can't possibly write about anything else because I am so consumed with so much worry. I went through this whole ultrasound before where I saw the the fetus, but there was no heartbeat. I am just dying inside with the thought this could happen for the third time around.

Thank you for those who has emailed me to check how I'm doing, I truly appreciate the thoughts. I'm hoping to write really great news by next week because frankly I'm getting tired of myself going on like this.

Monday seems like forever and the waiting is driving me nuts.